Me,Myself and I

last week was the week of hell, i spent most of my week with my sister and tashia. my sister and i got fucked up like everyday of the week and i got that 2nd hand high.but it was cool being with her again. Tashia on the other hand i...i..just dont know anymore even though werent together i want the passion we once had to still be there,the love,the happiness and us...but it wasnt that way at all. we use to have this unspoken and unwritten rule about us not bein on the phone so much when we're together but we well more like she was on her phone and it made me feel alone so i found ppl to text and talk on the phone with. "Carmen" and "Ally Mcbeal" were her occasional texters i know Ally Mcbeal is Alex but I had to find out who Carmen was. Guess how i did that???? I logged into her downelink account. Carmen's new,they met on downelink but not in person at least I dont think.hmph. She doesnt think that I know she spent yesterday with alex to be honest i dont really care anymore, after they first encounter i stopped caring. i couldnt cry over spilled milk anymore.she was tryin to get back to her anyways. when she picked me up Wednesday, I was driving, she recieved a phone call. It was Alex, Im guessing Alex asked Tashia was she driving Tashia said "no their drivin now" i started to spin the car off the fuckin road and punch her in her face.. I was thinkin am I a nobody to you? Do you even know my name? but i just kept my cool and stayed a bitch the rest of the week.

While she was there though, she sent me this text:"Im so sorry....my flaws break everything..and i just cannot fix it all...i cant try hard enuff cry long enough...we didnt fail..i failed us...maybe one day maybe i'll b a better girl but today im still having things to learn and my shortcomings r my fault alone that spread to everything i encounter but u most of all i wanted to protect...but fell so short shorter than i could ever imagine... 11/30/08"

^kinda hard to believe

Man, I'm so sexually frustrated i havent got any since October! but then again I dont even get horny anymore like i use to...i wonder why???I am however looking to bust a few nuts while i'm in AZ for a week. but I'll see..idk i had alot more on my mind but ive been tryin to relieve stress lately.

oooo Im so hooked on Janelle Monae,Conya Doss and Ayo( all thanks to Bee) and Solange. Ive been listening to Janelle Monae the most though she knows how to sing about the shit I've been going through.Im happy with my new found music though