MCC Weekend.

so tashia cheated on me yet again. i told her the girl was gonna try her and she didn't wana believe, now she sees why i dont have any faith in her.

so i left early thursday around 11am to go to bham. tashia was suppose to be up there that day too but she claimed she had to go her mass media class on friday.so yea that day i just let my mom run my fuckin nerves to high hell and stay in a hella sleezy and dirty hotel. i really didnt sleep that day either or eat. i didnt really eat all last week to be honest i had lost like 5 lbs and i was happy.friday tashia came and was pissed the fuck of to the point she wanted to hit me or kick my ass as she says. She went through my phone, a 'no no' and was upset by what she saw in my text messages from donna. donna was callin me baby and shit which pissed tashia off i told her dont be upset by what u find in my phone cuz i wont dare go through yours to save myself some heartache.now donna is a girl i jus befriended last monday and we cool on the talkin level, im not tryin to get with anyone else nor do i think i ever will.but tashia and i made up like 40 mins later. im not sweatin that. saturday we didnt do much either went to a different hotel, got some sushi with some crappy ass service and went to sleep. it seems like everytime tashia and i get the opportunity to go out tashia never does and she claims shes tired and goes to sleep.sunday we had one for the road and parted our seperate ways.i came back to school with like 30 dollars when i started the weekend out with 320. aw well.backin to this cheatin thing....

were pressed play on our pause

so tashia cheated on me by kissin another girl about 2 months ago.i dont wana take the blame for her actions but i was ignorin her that day cuz i didnt wana deal with her nonsense of gettin the girls number and gettin drunk for the previous night. but today i aint takin blame for not a damn thing cuz i wasnt ignoring her or nothing. she met this brandi or alex depends on tashia mood on what to call her about a week and a half ago i told her that she needs to tell her things instead of waitin for the girl to ask because the girl will think if u do have a girlfriend u dont care about her enough to tell her to other which is true cuz they kissed today and the girl still dont know about me. tashia dumb ass thinks now is the perfect time to now tell her about me.. what type of ape shit is that???? tashia wanted me to be ok with her meeting her a new friend but i never was...lesbians will be lesbians i dont know how much more i can take...i just thought she would be different than the rest and cheating in relationships is all i know,its super frustratin. when we 1st started talkin she once upon a time said she would never think about cheating on me but she has cheated on me twice. even though she says them bitches dont mean anything thing...clearly they do that they're taking time away from us. its 4:06 and I got a 9 o'clock

People say alot but do more..
-J